He is teaching me to be more bold and radical for Him every day.
I write articles for a ministry entitled iWomen’s Ministries. We have a new study starting tomorrow and I was due to have my first article to them yesterday. Procrastinating as I did (I am a bit ashamed to admit that), I did not have my article ready. Yesterday I ran into my office, put some thought into the subject matter I was to write on, and I was done. I struggled with every little sentence, but I finished it. Zap, it was gone to the ministry. However, I knew as I was preparing the email to the individual that I report to that the article was not right. I said as much to her in the email but I sent it regardless.
For the next 30 minutes or so, I could not let it go so I sent the ministry another email instructing them not to use the article I had previously sent and I advised them I would send a new article today. For the remainder of the night and into this morning, I could not get it off my mind. I could not figure out why my article did not flow as I am accustomed to them doing. I could not figure out why I could not relate my topic to biblical structure. I have been studying the Word for many years now and there is nothing that is not covered in the Bible.
I got up this morning after six hours of unsettled sleep to get ready for church. I did not even want to go because I felt as if I were sleepwalking, but after my experience with karate this past week, I was not about to give in and stay home. God could have another blessing prepared for me and I was not going to miss out. Well, lo and behold, it was shortly after I came to this conclusion that my article I needed to write today just flowed through my mind. I was flabbergasted ... I was speechless ... I was amazed AGAIN at God’s faithfulness to reveal and teach.
You see I wrote that first article without Christ’s input. I did not pray and ask for Holy Spirit discernment and guidance. Yes, it was a good article ... for a medical paper or something but not for a Bible study. Then, as God laid out for me the individuals from the Bible I was to use for my article ... well, let’s just say that I cannot even make you perceive my emotions. Conclusion ... apart from Christ I can do nothing. What I do on my own may turn out ok ... it may work ... but it will never be as blessed and prosperous as what He can do through me if I allow Him to.
I was discussing all of this with my son and husband this morning, and then another revelation came to me. I said, “God, you have showed yourself to me so much in the past few weeks. If this is how You are going to be the remainder of the year, then I have a powerful year ahead of me. Why, God?” His response, “You have been diligently seeking me more in the past few weeks than you have been doing in the past ... through prayer, meditation, Bible reading, church attendance, etc.” I am never far from God but I got slack on spending quality time with him ... seeking Him through His Word ... asking His design for my days! God never lies and He said to seek Him and you will find Him!!!! What lessons we learn if we are only open to them.
Seek Him today and allow Him to flow through you. It is so mind boggling and earth shattering that you will never turn back. He loves you so much.