I have been running ragged with soccer this year. Though I try not to complain because it is my last year having this special time with my son, getting up at 5:00 a.m. and then not returning until almost 9:00 p.m. wears on this old body. By the time the weekend gets here I am plume worn out.
Speaking of my son, we had both a memorable moment and a bad moment all in less than a few hours the other night. For the first time in 17 years, we had a real blow up. We were in the car when it came about. Though I wanted to cry at the hurt I felt to realize we were even disagreeing, I had to remain calm and unemotional to show him I was firm in my stance on this matter. It was tearing me up inside, but I managed to maintain my composure. We got home. He retreated to his room, and I went to my office to work on some things.
My son has a basic routine that he follows nearly every night. He does what he needs to do, plays some video games, reads the Bible for a bit, and then turns in. Around 9:45 he came into my office and said, “Mom.” I responded with, “What” and I never looked at him. He then said, “Mom, I do not want to go to bed like this and I cannot imagine that you do. Can we hug it out?” I turned to look up at him, and there he stood with his arms opened wide for his mom to hug him. I got out of my chair and commenced to crying as he held me tightly. I told him, “Son, I just love you so much and I only want the best for you.” He responded, “I know.” It does a mother’s heart good to see what God has done in the life of her child. He humbled himself enough to come to me, and it was a moment I will cherish and remember. We may have difficult times ahead as he tries to forge ahead and figure out his path in life, but I know God will direct him and lead him. It is reassuring.
Ok, I am going to call it a night. I promised my husband I would get up early in the morning and go to the gym with him. Then my son has a soccer game at noon. Afterwards we have a family cookout to attend. My stepson and his wife are in from Germany.
I wish you all a good night and peaceful dreams!